so today was the sophomore retreat. this sums up my feelings in a heartbeat: [link] . my friend ~OPgoddess6 wrote it.

but i felt more emotional about this one. i got scared...

...but for a school classmate and friend.

to protect her privacy, i won't reveal her name, or even exactly what's wrong with her. (OPgoddess6 should know who i'm talking about though. maybe even ~Shirahime20)

she was crying at the retreat today while talking about her illness and as she kept telling us about it, she kept crying and i got so scared for her, i couldn't stop crying. afterwards, when we were cleaning up, i went and gave her a hug and i just couldn't stop crying. she asked, "what's wrong?" and i couldn't even say anything. in the end, we just kept hugging each other, crying, and then she told me, "if you need someone to talk to, i'll be here." and all i could say was "you too".

i wanted to tell her that i'm scared. i'm not close with her like others are, but i'm just so scared of losing her. she's always so happy, bubbly, cheerful, and energetic in class and as an individual that i was so shocked at the truth and so, so scared. i remember just YESTERDAY, YESTERDAY i was in her homeroom cuz mine was locked and i just found out that i had a chem quiz. i was writing the stuff on the dry-erase board to test myself and she came in with all these other girls, and she started cheering, "GO KATHERINE GO~ GO KATHERINE GO~" over and over. and she kept it up even when i left to go to my own homeroom. she's that cheerful and happy that i didn't even THINK that she could have such an illness.

...god, i just finished crying again. (BTW i copied and pasted this from my Livejournal. i actually wrote all this 5 hours ago and decided to post this on dA) we're the same age, and she's gone through so much already for nearly half her life; yet she didn't let that bog her down and stayed cheerful. i'm starting to really admire her, look up to her. i'm going to definitely get closer to her, be a better friend, and pray for her...

my beautiful, strong, selfless, cheerful friend whom i love and look up to.

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on another note, the typhoon in the Philippines... OMG i'm really scared for my friend ~Kosakayama. she moved to Manila two years ago for school and i don't know what happened to her. i've actually had all these scenarios run through my head. i've been leaving twitter messages for her and i'm just so worried... she's like an older sister to me, and an even better senpai...

for more info on Typhoon Ondoy, go here: [link]

And my LiveJournal, where i wrote about these two, is found here: [link] . i mostly write about the events in my life, mostly the bad ones, and i don't update frequently so don't really expect too much from it. and if you have a LJ, please feel free to add me as a friend~ just drop a comment~